Only a few could recognize my anger—
A ferocious beast living within me,
Hidden behind my smiles, smiling;
Its presence is savage and horrifying,
...
I have a million dreams to fulfill,
And a million more to discover.
Wherever fate would take me to,
...
I described infatuation before,
As a feeling that slows my progress,
An experience that could lead to hurting myself.
...
It is a stellar and frosty midnight,
Yet I chew clouds of afternoon;
I let them come in and out my lips,
And they elevate my lunacy.
...
I was supposed to write a downcast poem,
But when I went out of our dear abode,
And took a glimpse of nanang's garden—
There the marigolds stood full of life,
...
if you think
i have given up…
the torment you caused me
was not enough
...
Joyless and miserable, the heaven sobs at Darapidap Beach,
As I rest on the sand, breathe in the salty air, and hear the chaos of the waves.
It is a murky crepuscule and the weather seems to imitate my devastated eyes—
My eyes that used to sparkle, that used to carry a million suns…
...
Your smile resembles the blue skies and seas,
The sand and the clouds, the fishes and the birds—
My favorite scene, spot, and comfort in my solitude;
...
I am a yellow soul, living in an earthly body,
A free soul, wandering on this miraculous planet;
Within me are sunflowers and laughter,
Paradise and imagination, stars and wisdom,
...
I am a trying-hard wannabe poet who simply wants to live.)
The Beast Within Me
Only a few could recognize my anger—
A ferocious beast living within me,
Hidden behind my smiles, smiling;
Its presence is savage and horrifying,
He could bring inferno and ruin spirits;
The beast has always been awake and active,
But I learned to tame and control it;
It is not prisoned or chained,
It is free... and I let it take over me—
If someone insults, disgusts, betrays,
Or takes advantage of my innocence and kindness;
The beast is not physically violent, but
It will punish you with words, with truth, with justice;
The beast will mark afflictions on your chest,
And it will remain until the whole world hears your outcry;
Return what you have taken, and you will be forgiven,
Give me back my smile, my joy, my vibrance,
And you need not to suffer from darkness;
I love this huge and bad creature within me,
It reminds me to always protect myself,
And that no one has the right to hurt—
A joyful, kind, and innocent soul... like mine.