Diane Catherine Kordas

Today I was sad,
I was sore
I'm so tired...
I'm tired of hiding it
...

I feel stupid writing this but,
I miss feeling needed...
All of the days I was,
I've been replaced...again,
...

Is there something wrong with me?
Am I just a bother to you?
I'm sorry,
Must I leave?
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When you look at me,
I feel to be the only one you see,
You love me,
I love you too.
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It's obvious,
I'm not wanted
Or needed here.
It's obvious,
...

Sometimes when you fall,
You just want to stay down,
Because you know,
When you finally stand back up...
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The blood we shed,
and the flames we burn,
are of the loss and pain,
we have and share.
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I sit here,
Alone and unnoticed,
By anyone who passes,
So I put my headphones on,
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I've been told,
'You need help! '
'What's wrong with you? '
'You're useless...'
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Why am I here,
Hurting myself,
Unable to do anything right?
I just mess everything up...
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The pain from inside,
It creeps up,
Trying to get out,
Slowly,
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You made it feel so,
So...REAL!
Only for me to be hurt...
by the truth,
...

Was it my fault?
Like you made me believe...
or can I say,
'It's your fault'
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I'm hurt...
Why?
Did you plan this?
Why did you do it?
...

The cuts...
Aren't deep enough...
They need to go deeper,
I want to show you...
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I miss you,
It's hard to write this down,
you're so amazing...
Will it be good enough?
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I sit thinking,
'Would I be missed? '
'Do I matter? '
'Why am I here? '
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It's overwhelming me,
Being alone helps...
When I'm around people,
I feel judged, like Demons are there,
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I can't do anything right,
Even if it's a slight mistake.
It feels like the world collapses,
Onto me,
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I don't feel loved,
It's getting worse...
I'm scared of loosing everyone,
I will try save all of them,
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