Celene Bonin

This love I wish to uphold
Is lethal to behold
With its coagulating desire
That I hope will never tire
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This is your last chance to change
Your life needs to rearrange
If you don’t I will be forced to move on
For my love is slowly being withdrawn
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So I say goodbye
As I lie down and die
I shall spare an invocation
Unseen by this cruel nation
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How can you see into my soul with such ease?
Leaving me breathless, down on my knees
Your touch is what I long for
Always leaving me wanting more
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Was this all a lie?
To tell the truth, you rather die?
My heart, your words impale
What they now unveil
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These words I wish to speak
In its nature not so meek
These words I must divulge
My heart it will indulge
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Your eyes see straight into my core
Always leaving me wanting more
You will never know how extraordinary you are
The most immaculate by far
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You know that feeling when you love someone but you feel as though they don’t love you as much as you thought they did… and when they say that they love you but you’re not sure if they actually do love you or they are just trying not to hurt you… and the feeling you get when you feel forgotten… lied to… like your heart is being stabbed repeatedly…
Maybe it’s true that there aren’t any happy endings… there isn’t a Prince Charming… like the one that you love abuses your love… there is nothing fair about love… it always hurts…
You know that feeling of adore that you once knew you had from that one person but its slowly slipping away… you try and convalesce it but it won’t come back no matter what you do…and then there is this coagulating contemplation calling to you saying that maybe he is trying to tell you something… maybe he is trying to say that his love is fading away into a dark abyss never to return… maybe he is trying to tell you that he is encumbered by your love and desires to evacuate…
You know the feeling of pure dread when you think of the possibility that he may not love you any more…
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Jealousy is a curse
Nothing could be worse
Deep in your heart is where it must reside
Always threatening an undeserving suicide
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Broken hearts, and painful darts
Relentless acts, leaving just the facts
A soul departs, leaving one in parts
The knife impacts, what the love lacks
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The haunting memory of your love’s embrace
His illuminating eyes
The many nights endured without his face
And a life filled with so many goodbyes
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This love, so unique
Something so many cruelly critique
This love, so true
Enjoyed by so few
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Pain is something that inhabits your core
Something so relentless leaving you so cold
You scream at the world not wanting any more
As your fears slowly begin to unfold
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This new outlook on existence
Has assassinated my resistance
I have now learned
That all the bridges that you burned
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The deadly forces that cast their shadows
On these ghostly hollows
Calling to my essence
a glimpse of a presence
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ou are like a dream
That I always wish to redeem
Let this dream reign true
Something never to undo
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