Amanda Lukas

Daddy never knew me.
He never took the time.
Never came to birthday parties.
Never recited a nursery rhyme.
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...And when she would smile
and tell me that it was okay to cry,
I'd cry in her arms and know I was loved.
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I see his sleeping eyes in the moonlight.
He is beauty in his sleep.
I know he'll awaken and hate me;
I've gotten in too deep.
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He holds me while I cry
and flashes gentle loving glances
as he looks into teary brown eyes.
He explains them as 'beautiful'
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I sometimes wish we'd never met
and life was whole without you,
but then I catch myself
thinking of those succulent kisses
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A desperate heart,
tattered and torn and forgotten.
Stomped and grinded into
concrete of her life.
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You say you love me and you believe it.
I say you don't even know who I am.
You're in love with the image of me
that you created.
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Don't speak.
Your face says too many words.
Don't give me that forced smile.
I've seen your attempts to look warm before.
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You can have your memories.
I'll put them in a shoebox for your disposal.
Keep them with you,
and do as you please with them
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My list of things to do
just seems to keep growing longer.
Keep your office clean,
make Bill's coffee stronger
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If I could make you happy,
Then I would gladly stay.
If I could bring you a smile so huge
As on children when they play.
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A life not worth living, you say?
An unbelievable toll!
Talents not worth using
must mean songs not worth singing,
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I haven't forgotten
that look in your eyes,
the way you cocked your head to the side when you laughed.
I can't let go of
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I sing for you, my angels.
You are the clouds on which I fly.
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I am stronger because you've made me this way.
I've learned to laugh, to love.
Learned to endure hardships,
strive to achieve excellence.
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I ate my lunch in the park again today,
as it is becoming my usual routine.
I'm finally allowing myself to sit in silence
and brave being alone with my thoughts.
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It was the middle of winter,
the middle of the night.
We were sitting in a diner together,
engaged in small talk.
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I used to write you messages in the sand, Mother.
I knew they'd be erased
with the night's rising waters,
but I always took comfort
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I must confess that this is my first time
seeing the leaves change in fall.
I laid on my back
under a rather large tree today,
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No candy hearts or roses, please.
I don't want teddy bears.
I don't want dinner at the Palm.
No movie tickets,
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