Zoe MacRae

Trembling verbal incarnation
I am a contradiction
Of systems, of values, of attitudes,
Of statements, of words, of meanings.
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In deepest, darkest fear I ran to hide.
Fast did my feet and my heart in rhythm pound,
Breaking a dead silence the only sound,
‘Til in dread despair to you, Lord, I cried.
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(These are the lyrics to a song I wrote...)

When I'm running away and scared
And all, it seems, is hopeless
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Nothing's obvious anymore.
Always, 'It's complicated'.
Remember the days when
Life was so clear?
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Still, quiet my soul rests
As I feel the comforting touch of
The colorful breeze.
For only half the feel of light is warmth;
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My grip is weakened by long months,
A long winter of holding on.
You looked into eyes that could not keep meeting your gaze,
Told me to let go of those empty promises.
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Face the wind
Feel the pressure
It blows me away
It rushes past to God knows where
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Some confusion
Dust rising
From dry land and
Year-old memories
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Open.
Wide, far, so high
And deep - I know it is.
Filled with Free,
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Don't tear me away!
We all tore away
And now I don't know what to do
How to act or
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Time freezes.

Fall down
Silence as loud as
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Lord, capture my heart and transform it
to be like that of your Son.
Make me holy, whatever the cost.
Break me and heal me, Father of all comfort.
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Father God,
The darkness is engulfing me!
The darkness is crashing over me like a great wave.
The Spirit cries out within me,
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Red letters
Cut deep
Soothe the pain inside.
Red letters
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You dance in a white dress
A beautiful life.
But you feel
Their suffering
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