What Iff

who says whats real
who says whats OK
who says what we feel
is supposed to be that way
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I lie alone on the floor,
no point in living anymore.
NO one listens,
NO one cares. They
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I'm Blank
I'm Pale
I'm Cold
I'm Hollow
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Anger, Frustration, Elation, Sadness, Pain, Suffering, Tears, Fears, Black, Touch, Reasons, Red, Normal, Limbo, Grief, Happy, Confident, Broken, Unhappy, Alone, Smothered, Covered, Speak, PANIC, Anxiety, Needles, High, Low, Hard, Soft, Torn, False, Lucky, Unlucky, Swinging, Ticking, Twitching, Overwhelmed, Loved, Un-Loved, Forgotten, Overlooked, Burned, Scared, Screaming, SILENT, Controlled, Unbalanced, Unhinged, Somber, Late, Unprotected, Pressured, No-point, Living, Listen, Care, Stares, Argue, Push, Pull, Fall, Calling, Nothing, Bored, Wrong, Ringing, Right, Answers, Tired, Scattered, War, WHY?


Everything i feel is wrong it breaks the rules, and yet it makes perfect sense to me.
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the top and the bottom draw
the top and the bottom shelf
the ins and the outs
the back and the front
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I'm sick of feeling like a freak,
Feeling too afraid to speak.
In case i mutter a wrong word,
In case when i speak I'm not heard.
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