totally disturbed

Innocent, trusting
They look to their parents for love & security.
Soon they see the evil side of the one they need.
Wondering, What did I do to make them hurt me?
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I never thought much about destiny
Until the night you looked at me.
The attraction you try hard not to see
Shows everytime you look at me.
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Scared, empty all twisted up inside
I'm so unsure of everything
Why am I so unhappy with me.
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Since the moment you were created inside of me
I've thanked the Lord for giving me such a wonderful blessing.
I love so many things about you, your the best thing me and your
father could ever do.
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You place the words on the page.
As if to guide us to a special place.
Whether it's real or whether it's fake.
We anticipate the words everyday.
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To Touch you and feel you next to me..
That's what I desire more than anything.

I felt it for so long but never let you see
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Each day it get's harder and harder
to hide my pain.

I feel the breaking point coming soon
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Come and rescue me
I'm broken can't you see..
Each day that your not
here with me.
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When we first me I thought you were the most
wonderful guy.
Thought we would have such a wonderful life.
I soon realized that would never be.
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I hate it when I feel this way.
So unsatisfied with myself & everything.
I hate myself so much you see
My hatred for myself consumes me.
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Mornings are a little crazy
I can't seem to accomplish anything.
I normally wake and I'm happy
An hour later I'm very mean.
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Why can't you see me am I really that small.
If I gave you the truth would it matter at all.
My attraction to you is like a disease
Flowing thru my viens killing me.
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Restless
Is what I am
Longing for some
Thing to fill this empytness.
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Secret Admirer is not who I am.
Very much unattracted to you this is true.
And you know exactly who I am.
For awhile I thought I wasn't good enough
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Not so Secret Admirer anymore.
I opened up my heart and got ignored.
Still think of you probably always will.
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Sqeezing my neck I can
hardly breathe.

Scared, God please help me.
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Secret Admirer is who I am
Very attracted to you this is true
But I can't reveal who I am
A little bit older and unvailable too
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Quite often I have the same dream'
Someone is trying to kill me.
I'm walking along on a road I've never seen
When suddenly a voice calls to me.
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No one truely knows
What's inside of you or me.
We show the world
What we want them to believe.
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