As Good As You'Ve Been To This World Poem by Christina Ramirez

I'd wait forever, but leaving that thought around could be picked up by whomever.
I used to say to myself, move away from all that is evil; leave it all behind you before it becomes an upheaval.
But what do I know, I just say things to make my mind more at peace. And since then everything ceased.
I have nothing more to give, whether I dig deep and find something that you won't want, so I'll tie it on a string and swing it in front of someone and there I'll taunt them.
Maybe you just don't understand where I'm coming from and when that time finally comes, you won't know where I stand.
Somehow you make me want to love you and hate you all at the same time; yet being with you I'm at my most calmest and I'm sublime.
Being your friend is what I desire; yet being more is what keeps my life fire.
I don't think of you as often as I used to, but when the days gone and I think of everything gone wrong; it's you that I want to hold me.
To rewind everything and undo all that's ever been done and let things be as they used to be.
But I know that it won't.
I can't hate you and I hate myself for doing so.
Because with everything that we've ever been through,
I shouldn't be talking to you.
But I find kindness and forgiveness that dwells deep down saved especially for you and I give it away two by two.
And the thing is that it'll never run out.
I'll never have the worring thought of a drought, because through years of lessons I'll still never have any doubt.
I'm just used to hearing your voice and when it came down to it, I'd make no other choice.
It's you forever and ever, no matter the age, nor year.
Because the first time that I saw you, my life suddenly became clear