Sarah Shifflet

I'm drinking again, because it seems to be alcohol is my only true friend
It's here when I need it most, it makes me feel better with only a cup or so. However the truth still remains that im simply just hiding the pain.
I'm hiding the fact that my heart is indeed black
people tell me I dont need that, refering to the alcohol of coarse
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Im gonna be honest with you, I wanna be more than friends
I wanna be yours again, I'm not gonna pretend that I havent been sufferein because I have, without you i've never been so sad
What will it take to be yours again? because being without you I surely do hate. You've been on my mind, since the last time we spoke online
No this isn't a joke i'm not lyin. However I might start cryin
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I've been told my poetry is like the ocean
My words flow and cause a commotion
people tell me I should be a professional poet
that my poems are too good for the world not to know it
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The sorrow in this world is tremedous
what will it take to mend this? , this hurt
if we try our best to fix things somethings bound to work.
We can't give up, if we do were sh*t outta luck.
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Lets party like fools, lets go out and break the rules
if you have school tommorow don't go, because one day missed wont cause much sorrow. If you have work take the day off, have some fun, go out and play golf, or if that isn't your thing, get drunk and sing.
It's time to party like fools, go out to the bar and shoot some pool, forget work and forget school.
I say life isn't worth living if your not doing it for fun
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I Should have stopped you from leaving
now im left here alone and grieving.
I thought we were for eternity
I thought you told me not to worry
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I remember it like it was yesterday
the day you walked away
I should have ran after you and begged you to stay
now look where we are today
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So im sitting here by myself
staring at an empty shelf
Im so alone, no one by my side
or to talk to on the phone
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I stumbled upon you
a stranger at the time
but soon enough we were in loves divine
I looked into your pleasent eyes, and you stared back at me
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You make me feel like ive never felt before
your amazing and thats for sure
when I look into your eyes I get butterflies
your the best girlfriend ive ever had and when I hurt you I feel bad
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The way we live is pathetic
one minute we're drinking the next we need a paramedic
we go to parties expecting to have fun but we end up fighting and the party is done.
we do drugs to get high, knowing there's a chance we will die
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Dont lie to me when I ask you questions
dont denie what I was able to see just because I have depression
it's worse when you lie to me, when you fake emotions and pretend to cry to me.
It hurts so bad on the inside and out
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As danger approaches I sit here and stare
thinking about how life just isnt fair
why must life suck so bad?
why must everyday be so sad?
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I'll tell you a little bit about myself
ever since I was born my life's been a living hell.
People tell me I shouldnt say half the things I've said
like how I am good at nothing, and that I'd be better off dead.
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I'm learning to trust my instincs, because the last time I didn't was hoodwinked. I trusted a girl so deeply, but later on learned she only decived me. She found any excuse to leave me.
Now im left here still grieving.
What was I thinking? Really?
The thoughts of not trusting my instincs now seems so silly.
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