SARAH A. STRUSZCZYK

I have this friend who's just like me
but I dont call or talk to him as much as I should
but he's been there for me countlessly
and I tried to be there for him when I could.
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You're far away but close in heart
a memory that will always be
i try not to let myself fall apart
not accepting reality
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I don’t know what to say
Or think about this anymore
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My thoughts turn back to yesterday
the day plays over and over inside my head
acting as if I'm okay
when really my emotions are dead.
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A memory is all you are to me
or should i say regret
you live in my dreams almost constantly
re-living dreams i cannot forget
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Words could never express
Tears could not explain
I know I’ve made one big mess
And caused you nothing but heartache and pain
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The smell of it just made me cringe
knowing it once again got the best of you
you felt alone out on your binge
but alone was the last thing you were; in my view
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I remember the days I felt lost
the days I felt my life was one big mess
the way I felt love had a high cost
and caused just too much stress
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hesitation when i close my eyes
celebration when i see a sunrise
devastation when i hear the lies
concentration just to say my goodbyes
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Confusion running through my mind; cant describe the way I feel
Trying not to lose what I find, I hold on to what used to be real
Don’t know whom to trust anymore, who says the truth and the lies
Can’t even trust myself no more, especially with guys
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dont want it to be real
never wanted it to be fate
cant control the way i feel
cant control the things i hate
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Seems like everyone went back to normal
and forgot about you
when I sit here out of control
not knowing what to do
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straying away from existence
trying to ease the pain
because i lose it within an instance
and i'm back to square one again
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I feel frozen in time, refusing to move ahead
cant get you off my mind, your existence i cant forget
people tell me not to cry, but thats hard for me not to do
to be strong believe me i try, but i lost a piece of me when i lost you
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Falling into the pit of my own hell
Refusing to see the light
When all I want to do is yell
Eversince God took you from my sight
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Scared to move forward
Scared to fall behind
So scared of any changes
Scared of what I might find
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I listen to the beating of my heart
I hear the laughter and the tears
I end what never gets a start
And this is added within my fears
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Filled with empty goals
Filled with emptiness
From all the tales I’ve told
To wondering how it ever got to this
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Trying to figure out my life
Trying to figure out what I truly want
Can’t seem to do anything right
And the mistakes I make only come back to haunt
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Everyday is a blessing
For tomorrow is never promised
I learned this through a lesson
And I feel like my heart is garnished
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