Ryan David Ginsberg

I put on this straight face like everything is fine
When there is so much insecurity swirling around my mind
I try to act like I have it all figured out
When really I'm being destroyed by this heart full of doubt
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I lie in bed for hours just think of you
Thinking if I could go back there's so many things I would do
All the chances I had to make you mine
I would make you mine every single time
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Your smile, enough to get the butterflies fluttering
Your voice, enough to get my heart pounding
Your touch, enough to make my hairs rise
Your eyes, enough to leave me hypnotized
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Jesus of Nazareth, the man of many miracles
Fully God who came to take the flesh of fools
To live a life filled with demons
Saving men drowning in sins
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You are not judged by your words, but by your actions
Not judged by your mistakes, but by your reactions
But just because you help the needy
Doesn't mean your heart isn't greedy
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These things on my mind that won't seem to leave
All of these memories that I don't really need
Reminding me of the man I used to be
Showing me things I don't need to see
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I just wanna be the reason for the smile on your face
To know that I have finally found my place
To find the one to call my own
To find that feeling that I have never known
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Hold me close and hold me tight
Never let me out of sight
Baby grab me, save me from this mess
I will give you everything I have, you deserve nothing less
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You're saying you're hurt, you cant go any further
You're too tired, you can't go on
To that He says, jump on my shoulder
I can carry you along
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We pull up to your house, it's the end of the night
Wish it didn't have to end for it couldn't have gone more right
Each moment I just wanted to keep forever
But it was getting late on that night in September
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They say today is the day to celebrate our love
But one day is not enough
We will celebrate us every single day
We will celebrate us in every single way
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I was lost, just feeling so hopeless
Would have been done if I wasn't here ropeless
But I'm glad it didn't end that night
Because, before you, hope was far out of sight
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You tell me of all these guys who don't treat you right
How they are only using you for the night
How there are no conversations, it's just physical
And at the end you are just miserable
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In my head are all these hypocritical thoughts
Oh, how I wish they would all rot
Be taken from me and never be seen
Wishing I could just be washed clean
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You're the kind of girl who makes me think
Wow, she's so beautiful I don't even want to blink
Your voice so lovely, I don't even want to speak
Want to scream your name on the top of a mountain peak
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You walk into the room and it's like my pain is instantly gone
When I was feeling so weak, you came and made me strong
When I thought I had lost all hope
You came to take away the rope
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Dear God, I don't know exactly who you are
Or why you seem to be so far
Like you're in the distance hiding away
If I yelled would you even hear anything I say?
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You can't go back, you can't change time
You can't take back your words, they're a done crime
You can't rewind, you cant erase
You cannot move, you're stuck in this place
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He says that all of our past mistakes are forgiven
And a new life we are given
But why then do I still feel like the old me
Still the same horrid man I used to be
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Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve love
Like I'm not good enough for someone to waste their love on
Love fills the air, so I don't take a whiff
The smell so strong, but I won't take a sniff
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