Rizza F. Awayan

I was begging the stars one night
Talking to them as if they’ll hear me right
Wonder if they might talk back at me
I just keep my talking freely
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They will no longer hear me laugh
‘Cause I have had more than enough
I live each day as a punishment
Will not hesitate to jump into banishment
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The wind’s chilling outside
Its gustiness echoed the hallway soothing inside
Here I am again staring so bare
Heavenly bodies at night, my guardians so dear
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I am puzzled right now
Do I have to go on?
With this stupid feelings
I guess not, my dear
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The message was clear
Everything was a hoax, I can't bear
Abruptly I escaped the crowd
Don't wanna hear it aloud
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I manage my life to be good
To be like everybody else in this world
To live a normal life
And yet everything is in strife
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Recently my world was shocked
A little bit rocked
By this angel who came unnoticed
Springing like a flower, made me feel unease
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I will leave my heart with no tenderness
For it will no longer beats for loveliness
Demanding to overcome the excruciating pain is my desire
Triumphant maybe in the end, burning like fire
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Seeing them once more reminds me of something
Days past since I was with them talking
Even if they won't speak to me back, but just staring
That would be alright, for me it's quite relaxing
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The clock is ticking slowly
I could hear the sounds smoothly
It says it’s 2: 26 in the morning, quite early
Still am wide awake thinking of you naturally
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Hearing it for the nth time once more
Pinched my fragile heart down to the very core
Could I still stand the excruciating pain at my door
For I don’t have enough strength that I could bore
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I could feel now the pain
Of being left unnoticed, I'll be insane
How could you do this again
Got no answer, am in vain
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Fresh from the morning breeze
I breath like a child
What a beautiful day it is
GOD has given to me
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I cried a river tonight
Thinking of my fate, am I alright?
I guess am not but I need to
Or else I’ll be insane all through
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A ray of hope glitters in the east
A lovely dawn of love is blooming at its best
As if the tides of time slowly came to pass to the fullest
Moment by moment love was its grandest
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Can’t help myself
And grab a pen
Then start to shade everything
Emptiness they say
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I love mornings for it
Gives me another day
To reckon and reinvent myself
Behold GOD’S gift to us
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I try not to remember
The sweet songs ‘cause
In my mind it
Will not work anymore
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I learned to accept
The mere fact that
You’re no longer the one
I’ve been waiting for
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It was a day to reckon
The truth I have to beacon
Such quite message came without a flaw
Wondering my mind, my eyes so glow
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