You Deserve No Heaven? Why! ? Poem by Albert Arsenio Sison

Sison
March 24,2009
7: 52a.m.


why tend to punish yourself! ?
keeping happiness far from reach,
thinking you deserve no heaven
does it really make you numbed?
when you’re used to hide in darkness
until your eyes gets tired of seeing colors
for so long you've turned your back from the sun
from the things that give light to your existence
not admitting the fear to start anew...
masking all your weakness in an apathetic face
but I can see that your mind cries in solitude
while songs that puncture your heart plays
making your legs want to run as far as it could go
making your arms raise the gun and point it in your brow
now you try to forget the taste of tears
trying to understand why true smiles are illusive
knowing that there is no one to blame
when you want to stop breathing
you are a suicide that keeps living
thinking you deserve no heaven
it maybe so... that inside your mind
you feel you deserve no heaven...
so stop asking for salvation from tears
for deliverance from self inflicted pain
for someone to heave your doubts
you feel burdened with all your insignificant drama
but what would you do, when you feel true sadness?