Treasure Island

Nick Flynn

(1960 - / Boston / United States)

You Asked How (formerly Even Now She Is Turning, Saying Everything I Always Wanted Her to Say)


At the end there were straws
in her glove compartment, I'd split them open
to taste the familiar bitter residue, near the end
I ate all her Percodans, hungry to know
how far they could take me.
A bottle of red wine each night moved her along
as she wrote, I feel too much, again and again.

You asked how and I said, Suicide, and you asked
how and I said, An overdose, and then
she shot herself, and your eyes filled
with wonder, so I added, In the chest, so you
wouldn't think
her face was gone, and it mattered, somehow,
that you knew this. . .

Every year I'm eight years old and the world
is no longer safe. Our phone becomes unlisted, our mail
is kept in a box at the post office,
and my mother tells me always
leave a light on so it seems
someone is home. She finds a cop
for her next boyfriend, his hair
greasy, pushed back with his fingers. He lets me play
with his service revolver while they kiss
on the couch. Cars slowly fill the windows, and I aim,
making the noise with my mouth, in case it's them,
and when his back is hunched over her I aim
between his shoulder blades, silently,
in case it's him.

Submitted: Monday, January 13, 2003

Do you like this poem?
0 person liked.
0 person did not like.

What do you think this poem is about?



Read poems about / on: suicide, kiss, hair, mother, red, home, light, world, night, car

Read this poem in other languages

This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.

I would like to translate this poem »

word flags

What do you think this poem is about?

Comments about this poem (You Asked How (formerly Even Now She Is Turning, Saying Everything I Always Wanted Her to Say) by Nick Flynn )

Enter the verification code :

There is no comment submitted by members..

PoemHunter.com Updates

New Poems

  1. G, Nassy Fesharaki
  2. Side, Ruta Wuneh
  3. Unknown, Ruta Wuneh
  4. Bashfulness is the ornament for a youthf.., Dr.V.K. Kanniappan
  5. Yours, and only mine, Maya Tod
  6. IQ poeam, Angry Brownbear
  7. Lacklustre thoughts, Angry Brownbear
  8. Mindless Wind, Angry Brownbear
  9. Screams of Silence, Angry Brownbear
  10. Abode Aroma, Angry Brownbear

Poem of the Day

poet Edmund Spenser

My love is like to ice, and I to fire:
How comes it then that this her cold so great
Is not dissolved through my so hot desire,
But harder grows the more I her entreat?
...... Read complete »

   

Trending Poems

  1. The Road Not Taken, Robert Frost
  2. Still I Rise, Maya Angelou
  3. Daffodils, William Wordsworth
  4. My Love Is Like To Ice, Edmund Spenser
  5. Dreams, Langston Hughes
  6. I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings, Maya Angelou
  7. If, Rudyard Kipling
  8. Phenomenal Woman, Maya Angelou
  9. Invictus, William Ernest Henley
  10. If You Forget Me, Pablo Neruda

Trending Poets

[Hata Bildir]