Will It End For Real? Poem by Michele Weston

Will this pain every go away?
If I put a smile on my face long enough,
Will the smile become real?
If no one sees me cry,
Did the tears really fall?
Am I so broken I can't be fixed?

I wish this was a dream so I could wake,
But this is real, my reality,
I quit breathing alont time ago,
I am just a shell to what once was,
Rain clouds are always over me,
Why wont they go away?

I lost all feeling, I don't want to be held,
I run away and hide in my mind,
Trying to find solitude I never rest,
Please wake me and show me I'm alive,
If I don't feel something soon,
Will it end for real?