Why! , Why Goodbye Poem by nicole feltes

i have ruined her, brought her in to slam her down
i took everything with me, i looked her in her eyes and lied
everytime i said hello i really said goodbye
you walked my way and my heart pounded like a knocking door
i didnt want you, you made me feel, i didnt need you
your hugs, your eyes, your skin, your touch, all was mine
but i let it go why, what was the reason, my mind is clouded with fear
why do you cause me so much pain! ! why does my fears all come from you
your eyes are cold, but so warm you are a being i dont need
you were my heart, the reason i moved for a long time
but then i said goodbye why! you made me feel, you made me love
i curse you but i thankyou, i cry for you and i cry now your gone
two girls path was intertwined now i have said goodbye
it hurts why! an empty bottle talks to me and explains why
a dazed eye sight can see you you are the light that hurts my eyes
you are the thing i am scared most of the fear has been revealed
i have let you go, now i ask myself why oh why does it hurt
im sorry................