Why Me? Poem by PHUMLA KHANYILE

Why should it be me?
Who holds the fort that crumbles?
Who keeps afloat a ship that sinks?
Do I stand strong to pillar most?
Though my walls slowly fall
And the streams of doubt rapidly flow

Why can't I be the weakest?
Just so I could slump and coil
Be absolved from duty that calls
If not for a while hide behind a veil of tears
Forever receive from the kindness thrown
Why Should I toil twice as much

Why should it be me?
Who remains sane in the boat of insanity?
To make sense in a senseless world
Why should I carry the burden to care?
When all care not about tomorrow
Carelessly living each day as it comes

Why should I be the one?
To hide her falling tears
To conceal her pain with a smile
Why can't I just break down and cry
Tore into shreds this mask of pretense
Write gloom in my every public page

Am I the strongest to face these winds?
What if troubles prove hard to mount?
Will you still call upon me if I fail?
What if am buried beneath the rubble
Would you still call me your hero?
Or at last you'll see I need help too?