Why Cant You Understand? Poem by Michael Buchanan

Everyday i wake up hoping for a new start, but you dont understand how much you hurt me and how much farther you push down the blade laying on my wrist, waiting for that release of built up pain and suffering. Why can't you understand the pain you cause?

Everybody looks at me like i am wrong, all because i dont belong with the world that hates, the one that discriminates me for being me, hates me because i am what i have to be. hates me because they know that i cant hide behind a shield and have faced it all head on. Oh, why can'tyou understand the closer you push me to hell?

Every sercond that i am away from you, is another second i fall apart. Awaiting the day i cruble and fall. and you wont care at all. I know i shouldnt love thou who hast nothing but hate, but i cannot control my want for love, my want for warmth. my want for thee who hates me. Oh why, oh why, cant you understand, your the only one for me and how much it hurts?

Every time we meet, i know that it will always end with goodbye. We cannot lie to ourselves and pretend to be ok, i know you cant feel the same way about me, you cannot love me like i for you. you know not of what love truely is for you throw the word around like it is meaningless. too bad that i cannot do the same and every day i take more blame. and though i may be hated and hurt, i will still be better then you can ever make me out to be. Oh why, oh why. Oh why cant you understand that even a raindropp sparkles before hitting the ground, and even though you think you rule me, i am free and you and i were never truly meant to be.

And now i finally see maybe I hate you to.