Who Am I? Poem by Nicole Martinez

Thoughts are dark
Mind is sick
Losing my spark
It's leaving quickly

I'm going crazy
Everyone knows
Everything's hazy
As the craziness grows

I'm going insane
Don't say it's a lie
Something's wrong with my brain
I will not deny

I'm seeing things
They're everywhere
I'm hearing things that clearly aren't there
Yes, I know. I'm aware

Don't ask me if I'm ok
Don't let me lie to your face
I'll be here till I'm gray
Only to keep you happy.

I'm mad
Going bonkers
That's not bad
It's not monsters

Me and Alice
Alice in Wonderland
In our own little palace
Just south of Wasteland

We took the right path
We're crazy, but not too much
We won't cause a bloodbath
But we'll add just a touch

Crazy, Unstable
Bonkers and mad
I am not inhumane
But insane? Just a tad...

But you have to know
You have to listen
To the tale of a girl named Sneaky
That will help you understand

Who I am
And why I'm going mad
Like the Mad Hatter
From Wonderland.

You may not understand
You maybe confused
You may need help understanding the truth
But I can't help you

I can't even talk to you
So how will you understand
What can't be explained
And what can't be fixed.

Im me
I'm Sabrina
I'm Sneaky
I'm a person right?
I should be allowed to try.

But I don't know how
When everything is crazy
When everything is messed up
When I can seem to concentrate on anything alone

I don't know what's wrong
Because everything has fallen down
And out of sight
I'm not so sure what to do now

But I'll stay just for you
To know I care
To know I thank you
To know that your ok

Just for you to see
I'm trying my best
To fix my mistakes
And learn before I leave.