When The Feeling Is Gone... Poem by Sebastian Soberania

true,
i was
once in love with you,
i was lost
in the maze of my own feelings
all nights
i've been thinking of you
dreaming about
making love
with you
not even wanting to
wake up
just to be with you
holding you in
my arms
kissing your lips
savoring every sweetness
of your tongue
into my mouth
lots of it
all of me lost
in such a wild
imagination

only to wake up
to the reality
that you can never
be mine
(don't ask me
for until now
i can never tell
you
this shame
for this love is
simply
meant to be
unfulfilled
a flower meant
only to be
wilted
a puppy meant
to die
in the woods
without
a mother
a bitch)

now i finally wake
up one
morning
sober
and without
any denial
or protest
accepting my
faith
on this finally
aborted feeling
lost

and then i meet you
again
and you are near
me
i am brave
strong
my wits intact
my mind
probing
into the firm truth
emotions
shut
doors closed
windows
closed
houses abandoned
i packed up my
every belonging
left every imagination
about you
carried my body
into another
place where
forgetting is real
and true
and easy

i never said goodbye
for you shall never know
what i once felt
for you

we part as friends
and i promise myself
never shall i again
subject myself to
this pain

of love
unrequited....