What Right? Poem by Huseyin Abudharr Ali Diakides

I give you my everything, although I know it's not much,

But I will run to you across miles of jagged mountains my love,

Even if I know deep in my heart I can't possibly win this fight,

Even though I know that when it comes to you, I have no right.



For what right did I have to ask for you when I have nothing to give?

What right do I have to wish for such an impossible wish?

What right do I have to love you beyond all logic and reason,

And to fight to the death for you even if its you who executes me for treason?



Forgive my tears, forgive my pain and my infinite feelings,

When it comes to you what right do I have to even be dreaming?

For even in my dreams can such miracles be allowed time,

And I thought I was good enough for you, what a crime!



How could I think I could just steal you away from your World?

Like a begger could ever steal the most majestic of girls,

Yet this begger wont stop fighting now I'm in far too deep,

I've come too far now to be put off by inevitable defeat.



And my head explodes with a thousand plots and schemes,

Each one for you grows in the complete insanity of my dreams.

That are lost in confusion and uncertainty over my certainty,

That love will conquer all and one day you will turn to me.



You will say that nothing else matters but this emotion,

And you will reciprocate this divinely immortal devotion,

Somehow such a miracle came true and you seeked me,

Just like I seek you and you fell in love just as deeply.



For even though the mountain to my right to win your love,

Is impossibly high and too steep for me to ever get up,

The mountain on my left to get over you is just as high,

I don't even want to forget you so why would I try?



I'll die on the mountainside and you will never notice it,

You'll continue being oblivious to my hopelessness,

Whilst into the deep heartbroken ravine I will drop down,

And though I'm conscious to this I've come too far to stop now.



But by what right in all existence do I have to complain?

What right do I have to not be able to fight this pain?

What right do I have to not be able to forget you,

Your smile, your frown, your eyes or everything that you do?



Let me fall into my mind where even there I have not the right,

To hold you captive to my dreams totally devoid of foresight,

At least there your mercy will allow me to achieve the biggest win,

Even if I know that the mere thought of being with you is a sin.