What Happened To What We Use To Be? Poem by mona martinez

why am i your last choice,
but your first choice,
when you have a problem,
how could you not see,
that i want you,
as bad as you wanted me,

maybe i was the fool,
to push you away,
because i was afraid of love,
i was afraid,
of what could of been mine,
but it was all to fast,
it seemed like we were on different pages,

you wanted sex,
and i just wanted secuerity,
what went wrong?
except for you going for a girl,
who gave you what you wanted,
when you walked on by,
yeah, i loved you in ways you never known,

i could of gave you the life you wanted,
but instead we are traveling different ways,
because you were trying to find,
something i was giving,
and from the looks of it,
i can see it in your eyes,

that you are still looking for your happy ending,
and all i want is my prince to rescue me,
from this nightmare i only keep waking up from,
everytime i can't find that guy,
who had treated me like you use to,
but i guess we can't all have our cake,
and eat it too.

9/14/2010