What Does It Mean? Poem by Chrissy Horning

A man once said that life goes on
But I'm not sure I'm feeling that strong
My pain causes weakness, my weakness builds fear
My fear forms anxiety, my head won't stay clear
A storm is brewing inside my mind
A definite answer is hard to find
Insanity taunts me day in and day out
I'm wondering what life is truly about
Is it constant struggle to reach eternal pain?
Or is it sunshine that comes after the rain?
I ponder these questions everyday
If God is real which path is the way?
Someone please guide me away from my past
I'm feeling confused and losing ground fast