Walking In My Shoes! ! ! Poem by Compton Wright

I can’t believe such guilt eats through my body
Like termites eating wood through a house
but my house is completely different in these eyes
Imagine your house as a graveyard of dreams
As cherish memories die, dreams deferred, and confidence depleting
As I walk into my school I have to put on a mask on everyday
As all eyes on me to be Mr. Positive, Mr. Confident
Ha! I just wished I could be myself and stop keeping secrets

As I look at my GF and tell her that I love her but
Feel like vomiting on my shirt from the sheer disappointment
Of being a lesser man than I’ve already am right now
Multiple women in my life and say the same thing
In their beautiful smiles….”I Love you” the strongest quote
But yet the most painful to express to them without
Tears or madness to burst out and explode like a ticking bomb

Stress building beneath my heart to tell the truth to my love ones
But I drown them with their hugs and kisses…God forgive me!
Walking my shoes is like recreating WWII against your true self
It’s Pearl Harbor and D-Day everyday of the week in my school life
Trying to close my eyes for easement of the mind and soul
Only to see my inner self screaming for a savior
I’ve rise in tears but never shine from my bed of destiny
Unless my shoes are clean from the blood of despair
My state of mind of a heartbreaker will never change
As I would trade shoes with a guardian angel any day

But how can you do that if you tried to transform
To what the world wants to see you in your future
From becoming my own man I’ve become a puppet
Let out a pray to my lord for change of personality
But change doesn’t come through waiting on miracles
As god put me in these shoes to walk this highway of life
So I’m going to change the rules of judgment and self esteem
Turning this road to salvation from an thousand miles
Into a single foot as I’ll transform into my true self again
As god watch my changes into a better man…one step at a time