Untitled Poem by Stephanie Fleharty

your presence comes near
and i try to reach out
disregarding my fear
of what i might be without
im trying to do sumthing right
for once in my life
will this come out alright?
sumhow whatever i do
sumthin bad will come my way
like playin russian rouleigh
i spun the gun
pulled the trigger
just a blank
but blood still runs down my face
i just wanted to get a higher rank
i just wanted to be vigor
i just wanted to get first place
i wish i could have been who you wanted
but i couldn't change in that way
i couldnt be the haunted
i am only a stray
i've come to the realization
that i'll never be who you wanted
and my life will be haunted
you were my temptation
and as the ground covers me
a tear runs down your face
this is what u've wanted from me
to leave you alone
if only u would've know
and as the roses fall
by people who never knew me
you could finally recall
the depression that i tried to hide
and my fake pride
the smile that hid my fear
and that one single tear.
that fell down my ckeek
love i did seek
all i wanted was a temptation
like i wanted u
it rains and u put ur hood on
u walk off wishing
i was still there
but now im gone
and no one else cares.