Untimely End Poem by Kiy Anu

I'm tired of this thing that we call life
So filled with pain, overflowing strife
I want a way to end it all
But all that I think to do is to stall
I sit around and wait for days
But still no light, no sun rays
I don't know what to do no more
This sickness eats me to my core
I'm done trying so damn hard
I just want to play my last card
My body feels so empty inside
No matter what I do, how hard I tried
I can't shake the feeling that I don't belong
I can't stop thinking that I am just wrong
If someone could change my way of thinking
I'd thank them 'till my eyes were twinkling
But alas, I don't believe that they can
They won't help me, that's not the plan
I don't know what I am doing now
I have this feeling that I am a cow
Like I'm only being raised so I die
Made a part of someone else's lie
Told sweet words that don't ring true
And like a fool I believe, yes I do
I don't want to live in a world so dark
I'm afraid of it all, like a fish to a shark
I want to leave everything far behind
I'm passed drained of life's slow grind
I understand it will hurt those that I know
But I'm tired of living this dog and pony show
Condemn me these sins, I could care less
I'm tired of wanting for a life without stress
Don't stop me and to the abyss I descend
A Hell for me who met an untimely end