Unclear Poem by Adonis Labial

I was in a world where colors were blur
Is it roses that were red all over the floor
Or is it blood, that I am not sure
Chaos in silence this has no cure
No one can help me, I'm so insecure
All those footsteps and knocking on the door
So afraid of nothing I am growing paranoid
Doesn't want to suffer, no pain, no hurt
The mind has power, the feeling I'll neglect
Still I suffer, maybe 'til the very end
I just wanted to walk in that falling rain
Until all the pain and hurt be ease
Maybe there is something that might help
Tell me everything that is in your mind
You never speak of what you truly meant
I always have to read between the lines
Just tell me that unspoken truth you bear
A blessing or curse, it is so unclear