Trying To Find The Key Poem by alma estrella

I love him
yet i know im not suppose to
i love him
even though i cant
only one of my wishes i want to grant
for him to love me back
the way he feels about her
the way their love is obviously secure
no on can break it, really
so who do i think i am?
my acknowlegment knows it will never be
but my heart is stubborn
my heart believes this love will somehow repeat
so i go day by day
trying to find a new way
to get him out
out of my heart but theres no one to support me
to help me out
hes locked behind the door to my own heart and i cant find the way out
so i tried to find someone
to help me flee
away from this pathetic? situation
that has made my heart bleed
so many times its hard to breathe
everyone is settled
in one anothers nestle ready to bring love into their lives
yet i sit here beacuse of my decaying life has left me to die
so i sit here and wait
here i stay
as time flies by
i am left here to look up at the tranquil and just lay.
Because there is nothing that i can do but watch him
love her and how i wish i could let him out
their loves tearing me limb from limb
make it stop please....let him go i tell myself let him be free
but my heart only replys 'im so sorry but i cant
forever he will lay in your heart i just.....cant find the key'