Truth Of My Life Poem by Jude Pereira

Desrcription: - Wrote this year and a half ago... In m college lecture hall... The lecture was soaring over ma head... And that day.. I felt like a lone guy in the spotlight... Even though i was sitting in hall filled with hundreds of people.. And my life seemed like a blur... All confusing... All disturbing... Anyways... It also has lies which i'd considered as my friend... Cause then i thought people get close to you with amazing lies.. My friends then on realised i existed... Just because of my lies... But all of it was causing me pain from within... Cause they didn know the real me... For only I know the real me... Back to square one... I'm Lonely... This is what i've felt about my life till that day... So... Here it goes... And to all those who feel the same... Your not alone...

I'm saddened by the truth...
Lies cover them for me...
These lies are more painfull to beseech...
But the are friends indeed...

I see the world around so beautiful...
My presence makes it lose it's charm...
It's not for what I am on the outside...
It's for what I am within.. Which harms...

I gain knowledge in every second...
Yet... They seem to waste away...
I'm trying to fullfill others hopes and dreams...
Not caring that my life is fading day to day...

I look back at my doings...
I'm ashamed for what I had done...
It's like a dark cloud in the sky...
Bringing floods of misery down...

I believe in myself so much...
That I'm lying to myself...
Both belief and lies are hand in hand in me...
They come out together at times by themselves...

I'm confused and dazed...
Not knowing where to go...
Just following life as it is...
Through joy and sorrow...

At ever point in life...
I've found two boats to cross a river...
I try my best to get across with both legs in it...
Yet... I've never failed... I know I can conquer...

Life is a game... I think...
Play the right moves... Things are right...
A single foul... Will destroy you within...
But you never win at half time...

As I'm writing this...
I've put my head in my hands...
Crying out loud from within...
To the world... My face smiles...
Let it be happy when I'm sad...

To those who understand...
And for those who are still confused...
Put yourselves in every line...
You'll always find the truth....