Trapped In My Own Mind Part 4 Poem by joshua reid

I'm sitting here thinking 'am I really cursed'?
my broking heart is still in a hearse
Why do I always hurt so much?
Why am I numb to a loving touch?
No friends to talk to, all alone,
Frightened, terrified in my own home.
Friendships come but never last,
Shattered into fragments like broken glass.
Life is slowly passing me by,
How much I’ve missed causes me to cry.
Cut my wrists and watch it flow,
The blood is life, this I know.
Yet all this pain and misery,
Has already consumed me.
I cannot push on through all of this,
I’ve looked into the eyes of a devil’s kiss.
Random thoughts, racing mind,
Answers sought, I never find.
Calming breath, splitting head,
I want to lie in my deathbed.
An empty shell, the rotting kind,
I long for calmness never to find.
These simple words, such emotion,
My simple mind suffers corrosion.