To You Poem by Jessica Castillo

I wish things could go back to what they were
I wish we could go back to what we were
Would it be so different?
Wouldn’t that be an achievement?

I know I am not that strong
I know that something is so so wrong
I see it within myself
That is why I ask you for your help

I can’t do this alone
I can’t face this on my own
I need you by my side
Just a little bit of your time

The hurt & pain just seems to creep up
With no warning, with no stop
I know you are scared to see all this confusion
Can you help me see through all the delusion?

I try to smile beyond the pain
I try to be the same
I try to be happy….
I try to be

I realize that this so hard for you…
To not understand what I am going through
To try to make my day
And to just hear from me “go away”

Please hold my heart up for me
Please hold me in my time of need
Please don’t let me fall
Please don’t mind at all

All I need is a true friend
One who will help my heart mend
Someone to be there
For the moments when I am most scared

Mornings come and this I dread
I wish we could just stay in our bed
For you to hold me tight
And tell me that you love me and that all will be right

I know it’s hard to see me like this
I know that it’s the old me that you miss
Try to be patient
Try to be


I am waiting for the day….
When you give up and walk away.
I realize that this is not easy…
But please don’t leave me

I know that you can not tell
You and the kids are my light in this hell
I say things that make you hurt
I am so sorry for making you feel like dirt

I try my best not to dump on you
But it’s so hard, if you only knew
I am so sorry for the pain you feel
I know it’s a hard deal

To you I thank with all my heart
For being there from the start
To you I thank with all my soul
For taking on this difficult roll

I know it’s hard for you to see
That to my heart you have the key
But please believe
Please believe