Things I Don't Like Poem by Amri Ramsey

God there are so many things that I can not stand. For example: I can't stand it when people chew with their mouth open, when people talk with food in their mouth, when people smack their lips. There's many things that I very strongly dislike. For example: I dislike grapes, asparagus and the color brown. There aren't many things that I hate. And the few things I dislike aren't things I can't really change with out changing me. For example: I hate everything about my appearance, I hate when people lie to me, and I hate that I was so in love and in return I got so hurt. I hurt so bad. I miss being loved. Yes I understand that I have my friends and my family. But that is a different kind of love. I miss being loved with everything someone has. I miss having a emotional and physical relationship with someone. I miss my last relationship, not because I miss the person (because I don't) but because I miss what I was led on to believe we had. I miss sharing every single thing about myself. Letting myself go. Being myself. Along with missing that.. I miss my innocence that I gave away. I miss the four letter word. Saying it to someone and them saying it back. Not because they feel they need to. But because they wanted to. I don't like that I trusted someone with all of my being, have them tell me they wouldn't ever lie then find out the entire relationship was based on a lie. I don't like that once we got intament that's all he wanted. Even if I had said no. I really don't like when he wouldn't take no as an answer. I don't like that I think about the memories I have with him, good and bad. I don't like that I brought him around my family. I feel like if anything had happen it would be my fault. I dislike that thinking about him makes me sick. I dislike that my first love turned out to only be after one thing, which he ended up getting. I dislike trying to be so strong, so strong yet no one notices. I'm struggling so badly. And I just don't know what to do..