The Word I Fear To Write Poem by Matthew Holloway

Goodbye
is a word I fear to write
that someday I may mean it
that someday I will take my life
I walk with the weight of it all
upon my shoulders, in my heart
alone, even when in company
alone, especially in the sleepless night
how much longer can I be expected
to wait, wait, wait on love
on a chance to be happy once more
on a chance to feel wanted, desired
I fear writing that word
goodbye
I am not in danger of it, presently
no there is little danger of that
I am just alone and hurting
in the time I need you most
I am tired, old and weakened
I need to rest and recover
and weary I fall away
forever afraid
of saying goodbye