The Road I Took To Reach You. Poem by Eman Awad

Do you know how it feels,
standing out here, more clueless than ever.
I can't tell what is real,
not cold but my thoughts get me to shiver.
I'm falling down with my dreams,
and that great life i thought i will lead.
One mind drifted through million streams,
one heart in my hands and slowly bleed.
I get nostalgia over a smile,
i lost your precious smile but still i'm on my way.
I'm weared out mile after mile,
so tired, that if we met i won't ask you to stay.
The fact that you've always been far,
got me thinking, that maybe i can't have you near.
Our life is hard and our love is a scar,
my heart's always yours and it's my greatest fear.
You think you've been there,
but believe me you just haven't got a clue.
It's always painful and never fair,
the life and the road i took, to reach you.
It diverts, it's changing and ever winding,
i just got so tired but i don't dare to stop.
Some times the facts can get so blinding,
and i can't help, but to let my tears drop.
I know it in my heart though,
that if we ever stood out here together.
I will let all of my illusions go,
i'll touch a truth for the first time ever.
This thought warms my heart,
that i maybe able to captivate your smile finally.
I think i know where or how to start,
but i just don't know where this road is taking me...