The Loss Of Thought Through To Much Feeling Poem by chris starr

I never knew I'm sorry carried so much weight before
and in this certain story apologies are running short
i meditate on how to take insted of give.
Through somber words and selective sedatives,

But these bottled up emotions are not the way to go, even if I showed them would you ever really know, this state of mind sometimes even I can't comprehend, I apologize for this complicated mess u call a friend,

i dont know why I'm feeling below the lowest low
I do my best to hold on tight an try to not let go,
I try so hard to stay though I wanna go away through Plastic smiles I stay a while at least for today,

cause this constant way I'm feeling no one should ever know, so I make believe I'm happy so u won't feel alone, but I'm trying hard to change this I'm trying from the core, I wanna feel alive I don't wanna hurt no more