The Last Of Me. Poem by Pearlivia Alana

How can I live with this feeling everyday
just thinking about it gives me so much pain
stabbing through my memories like an edgy knife
am I going to live with it all my life
finding so many reasons to cry
I feel like its time to die
will there be grief and will I be missed?
will I be able to give mum a last kiss
no strength, no cope,
no feelings of hope
don't want to make any mistakes
my heart and life is completely about to break
please don't feel sorry for me, don't even worry at all
if it happens, it happens, its my own call
don't blame yourself because you couldn't do anything
just remember my beautiful voice and how i loved to sing
remember the good times we spent together
and at this point I leave you my last letter
I love you so much and its not your fault
your in my mind, heart, body and soul.

This was written by me when I felt like I didn't belong here.
It was a time when I was hurting and felt like committing suicide.

Thursday 1st October 2009
time: 5: 20pm