The Boy In Me When I Was Twelve. (An Archive From Childhood Crush, Now A Broken Dream) Poem by Achilles Mauko

To you Esmil
The beauty in your smile
And the glow in your eye
As to when I look at them
Turn my heart on,
Feel my heart with laughter
Now I am left grappling
With the feeling
Will you ever be mine?
Will you some day
Look my way
I pray
O am I going to bitterly pay
The price for dreaming,
Just look at us
Then at the stars,
So far away

I look at your world
And it’s perfect
There’s where I want to be
Where life will always
Be enough for me
And the pain I feel if any
Is a another kind of pain
Please guide my way
Into your arms
Where I belong
I just want to share
In your beautiful world
Esmil