Sunlight Exposure Poem by Mike Conkey

Sunlight
your blinding my eyes
i used to love you
though i told so many lies

i dream of sunlight
everytime i sleep
i see her crying
yet another weep

she talks to me in my dreams
simply talking
till im feeling
ill start sleep walking

o she pulls me to my knees
shes loved more men then me
i beg to see her
to let myself be

shes like a nicotine
a drug i constantly need
i sit and think
of how id beg and plead

restlessly
i no all id say
id completely apologize
id say it in such a way

im sorry
im sorry
im sorry
until this heart stops beating
im sorry

she has a new
a boy so kind
twice as good as me
but i no hed mind..
If i told her im sorry
im not looking for forgiveness
just a way out

of this guilt i hold inside
one that wont subside

i no she holds grudges
ones i cant sustain
but i must remain
silent till the lights go blind

i dream of ways
to rid this today
as i pile all my thoughts
to wash my sins away

all of my mistakes
ends in heart breaks

but 'it was only a highschool relationship'
but if only
she felt lonely

i was there when no one else was
wen everyone abandoned her
i was there
and i still do care

but i guess
ill never know
how to feel better
unless she shows
some kind of okayness

gravity pulls at me
bringing me down
but i dont want to be here
i want to bw found

the tension i caused with her friends
twice as badd as i feel
i know in someway
that my thoughts are real

i no she feels for me to
stay the h away from this
but i have a story to tell
untill this all goes all to well

so put me in my place girl
hate me with a grin on your face
until theres nothing left but sunlight
we all need a little more space

so im sorry
i cant change your mind
but the love u and him find
shouldnt be confined
yes it hurts to admit
but while this candles still let
you two look better than we did
because in my heart
i have created a new start
so again i say
in such a subtle way
im sorry
I will gain my compsure
from a pain of over exposure