Suicide...The Final Choice Poem by No Reason To Care

blank like the pages of a new book
is my heart and mind
I search and search
but there's nothing to find
what am I looking for any way
what do I have locked inside today?
I'm looking for a way to bring it out
so I won't have to live with the pain through out

my point is that there's nothing there
I'm an empty shell a ghost of what I used to be
what can I say to make you see
that there's nothing left in this world for me
there's no glowing sun in my life
only the darkest night
and after all that's happened
I'm ready to give up the struggle
and give up this fight

I don't know if you need to fret
I'm afraid to use a gun
and pills haven't killed me yet
but when I get too sad
I'll make up my mind
and my body will be put to rest
I will pick up the gun and put it to my head
a pull on the trigger
and will soon be dead
I'm sorry that it has to end this way
I'll be sure to leave a note that will say
' don't cry my friend at a point all things have to end
my time was now it may be hard to understand how
but don't blame yourself it was my choice to fall
my choice through it all'
that's all it comes down to
one little choice
then you're dead and others can rejoice