Spinning Vortex Poem by Andrus Cassian

'Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
and sit around and wonder...'
Wonder how things would have turned out
if
if I never spoke to you
Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
and sit around, wondering
Wonder what would life be like
if I only saw you out of the corner of my eye
never to say a word
Would I ever aspire to know you
or would I look at you as some random someone
not important enough to know...
Are you kidding me
I would never do such a thing
I'd have to be the coldest warlock in all of history
I'd have to be our old French teacher
married to the hunchback of Notre Dame
Laugh if you must, I know you know the joke
but this has nothing to do with her
but this has nothing to do with anyone else
This is just about you and me
and the growing empty space that's coming in between
Ever since we parted ways as lovers
parted ways as a loving couple
never to be separated, a double dose of irony
here we are
separate ends of the world
standing in hour glasses, each turning tides
looking at the other from a view upside down
And I can see the scowl on your face
or maybe it's my obstructed view
but I can see the scowl on your face
is it from the lack of my words of friendship reaching you
or is it from all the people of the world
stepping on your toes, preventing you from running away
I don't know, I wish I did
Adryanna, talk to me
Adryanna, speak to me
Adryanna, yell at me
do something
I just want to hear your voice one more time
see your face one more time
slap my face just so I know you can still see me
that I'm not invisible to you
Adryanna, I apologize for all I've done to cause you pain
and yes I should have listened to your warnings
that we may never talk again
and yes I very hate the idea your predictions came true
Adryanna, where is my best friend
I know things have changed
I know you've changed but still can I have my best friend
my friends are limited
but I always thought you would be that one friend
I could always rely on
Adyranna, we are two spinning vortexes
but I am spinning in reverse trying to become human again
my hand stretched out to beg you to come back with me
I don't care about anything else
I just want my best friend
to come back to Earth
realize I'm not invisible
that if I fail today
I'm just going to keep trying to bring you back
Adryanna, I don't care
I just want you back
I just want...
to listen to the saddest songs
sit around and wonder
if you'll ever come back to me
back to Earth
or remain that vortex
spinning away from me