So Confused... Poem by Radhika Karia

I get confused with my feelings often,
For this one guy for who my heart has soften.
I want him near or I want him to go,
He leaving is like poison that is killing me slow.

Oh! I want him back, which is so true.
But is his love all about lines that he drew?
I could sacrifice and to him my soul I would redeem,
Even if that is called losing your self esteem.

Should I give in and not think of the future,
Or should I be strong and let life give me a cure.
I love him lots but what’s the point if I can’t have him forever?
I am so confused; would I know what to do ever?