Simply My Way Of Thinking Poem by PoemasFrom Shortiee

Holding my feelings in,
taking faults before they begin,
making everyone happy, While
inside I'm slowly dying.

I put a fake smile on,
can't show my true emotions,
I take it as a weakness,
and as for them would be their
advantage.

Could it be that I don't know how to be happy? ,
or that I'm constantly overthinking every
situation and I make myself miserable?

Despite of what I've been through, I'm the
strong one in the family,
they saw me grow up not showing
much emotions as before.

Some say I'm heartless...
I reply,
'Is not that I'm heartless, I just learned how
to use my heart less and built walls up to
only let those in who really deserve to see that side of me..'

I learned how to not waste my time with people,
I learned how to not trust anybody; everybody became shady to me...
I learned that even if family comes' first, sometimes'
they can be the shadiest of them all.

Friends come and go so why stress when they leave
it just means they were never there
to begin with...
If you step into my life don't expect much from me,
the day you want to leave the door is right there,
I won't be the one holding it for you,
cause you can do that yourself...