Silently Suffering Poem by Bekah Tav.

I have to live with the scars,
Reminders of what I’ve done.
I have to deal with the pain,
All alone I am suffering.
I am the one who has to
Look at my skin.
I am the one all alone trying
To fix it.
Please don’t look at me now,
I want to hide away in my shame.
Silently suffering…
Just needed to feel relief,
To let this life go.
Focused on the pain,
Let my anger flow.
Into the knife,
Where I put my life,
Wishing it to love me back,
But no-
It was only there to
Make the red a steady flow…
Silently suffering!
The girl you see today,
Is no one to be proud of.
Too many mistakes I’ve made,
Wish I could go back and try again.
But this is life,
And there’s only ever one chance,
Only yourself to pull you through.
So try to let go of the pain.
Give up the past,
It is no longer you…
Am I silently suffering?
Push down hard,
Strum on that steel string guitar,
Making a song,
didn’t know I could sing.
Letting my sorrows go,
Let them come right out of me.
No more pain,
No more silent suffering.
And now these tears fall down,
I’m beginning to feel relief.
I know that now
The knife was never going to help me!
These scars will eventually fade,
To be only just a
Memory.
And I will know I made it
Through the silent suffering..
There will be no more
Suffering.