Should I Or Should I Not? Poem by Moana Tuigamala

Am I hearing something?
Or is it just the wind blowing?
Is it the wind that's scolding me?
Or is it just me worrying?

I don't know why, I just don't,
I have just got out of from a relationship.
And another door of oppurtunity has opened,
But I am just too scared to enter it.

I made a promise to myself,
That I will never get involved anymore.
In this heartbreaking game,
A game that transforms lovers into cheaters.

My mind confused with the way I feel,
My heart beating along with the dilema.
The cold truth is I still think about him,
For I was his first love but causing dramas.

An ex-boyfriend whom doesn't want to be called that,
But appreciates to be called a 'close friend'.
The question is what will be my answer,
To this new guys desperate question?

I don't know if I should go out with him,
Oh no! my promise, I nearly forgot.
Or should I just say no and hurt him,
Oh puh-lease, should I or should I not?