Selfish Inner Turmoil Poem by Anthony Han

</>As a selfish man
I have seen dreams burned to ashes
Past forgotten by anguish
Hopes of warmth turned aside
Only to be mocked with disdain

Descended since the birth
Never appeased until all was well
In the midst of it all the dream was lost
Without any sign of relief the tide turned
Twisting storms of unfulfilled desire
The feeling of a heart hooked by a anchor
Dragged down to a seafloor cemetery

Beholding those you never got the chance to
Say the right words
Make the right moves
Write the right memories
Regretting that there was never full effort
Slugged from the start of the confrontations

Yet it is all soon to be undone
Nightmares of regrets, desire, truth
All pushed away as my eyes find a face
One glimpse to set these locks open
A kindling fire to ignite a will to live
To belong to the body of the responsible

Give my soul to her
So she would stay with me
For now til infinity
Our hearts meld into one
A selfish life turning selfless
Although I have wondered
How could life be
If sooner I had acted