2/4/08
I’m scared to love you
I’m scared you’ll leave
Every time I say those three words someone always leaves
I love you means nothing anymore
Just words with no feelings behind them
As so many use them lightly
Scared of the leaving no worries about the words
The words are not the problem
I only say them when I mean them from this year on
Because I’m scared of the leaving and I have no worries about the words
I say those words and my world starts crashing before my eyes
The tears trickle down my face
Your car pulls away
Who knows when ill see you again
Loving you was like living
And I needed you to survive
But I made it on my own
Without your love
I didn’t need any of you to survive
You were my family and in Everyone’s eyes you still are
But not in my eyes
In my eyes you are dead to me
You left us when we need you
I gave you a chance and then another
Then you left for the second time just like she always did
You never tried to find me so you’re dead to me
What is love these days?
Is it leaving when your family needs you
I didn’t think it was
But this is what love has come to
Or at least in my family
Love does not give up but people who love do
Love is not just about you
When you love someone
You try harder
If you really loved me you’d try if you loved us you would have stayed in our lives instead of running To California because things got hard
She should have stayed instead of moving to Las Vegas
You both would have saved us from seeing the things
We didn’t need to see
Living through thins No one should live
She couldn’t control you
And now that’s she’s passed you sort of try
Well that’s not good enough for me
I don’t know you and I’m not sure I will want to again
You left me and you could have helped
You could have fought for us
But instead you back off
What kind of grandparents are you
Love is what people live for
Sometimes I can’t see why
All the hearts and kisses
Caring for someone more than yourself
That’s a scary thought
Knowing that you’ll always love them
Even though the pain they bring feels like a bullet running through your veins
Love me the right way
So love can be good
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
tis iz such a true poem i love it so much