Safe In Heaven Poem by Moore Hope

A crashing sound in the dark of night
I wake up suddenly shaking relentlessly in fright

Is it he who is breaking in?
The man I married, the man that committed a sin

He has threatened to kill me with a gun he has bought
I turned to the police to help me or so I thought
Sometimes it takes a dead body is what they did say
Well that body happened to be my baby that was taken away

I was four months along; I was filled with so much joy
The next week I was to find out if you were a girl or a boy

I saw you on the ultrasound when you were only as big as a grain of rice
Then I saw you again at three months waving to me so perfect and precise

I loved you so much; I would talk and sing to you all day
But your father did not want you; he said he would take you away

He said he would smother you when you were asleep
He would say it was SIDS and pleasure in your death he would reap

I knew I had to protect you but the judge did not agree
There was no proof that he said anything because he only said it to me

I was so scared I did not know what to do
I tried to tape his threats to me so that my horror would be thru

But he saw the camera on the table when he came to see our son
He took the camera and the tape so my evidence was none

He was so infuriated that he grabbed me by the neck
He pushed me up against the wall and choked me half to death

If not for our three year old son who was kicking and pushing you away
I probably would have been dead and not be here today

Our son screamed out to you that you were a very very bad man
And with a smile on your face you walked out the door and said sleep if you can

For you said you had a gun and planned on killing me
Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow, I would have to wait and see

So that night when I heard the crash I thought it was him coming to kill me
Shaking frantically I grabbed a bat in order to protect me

I would not let him kill us; I would put up a good fight
So quietly I crept into the hallway and flipped the switch to light

The bat held up above my head I was ready to take a swing
But in the end there was no one there the crash was a falling light fixing.

The next day I felt very sick, I knew that something wasn't right
But I convinced myself that it was nothing just lack of sleep from last night

I called the doctor for an appointment because I felt so ill
But when the doctor looked at the ultrasound you laid there oh so still

He quickly turned the screen away and sent me to a room
There he told me that your heart had stopped; that you died within my womb

Before they took you out of me I asked to see you on the ultrasound just one more time
I was in shock, you couldn't be dead, I wanted to prove that you were fine

The doctor granted me my wish and performed the ultrasound
I saw you there in my womb you were perfect until the doctor pointed out that your heart did no longer pound.

I tried to wake you up I poked, I shook, I wiggled just to see you move
But you lay there in the womb so still death itself did prove

I grieved for many months after they took your body out of mine
I did not want to live anymore; if he killed me it would be just fine

But then I gained my sanity and I began to understand
That God had to take you away before your father could carry out his plan

I still grieve for you my little one for now you would be seven
I never found out if you were a boy or girl, but I know you are my child safe with God in heaven.