Sadness And Regret Poem by Villie Beebs

Alone in the garage I sit there with my drink
Telling everyone to leave me alone, as I just want to think
Hoping I can get drunk enough for this pain to cease
Smoking my ciggerrettes to feed the tar hungry beast

So wounded from the pain, I am weak from blood shed
As these words of sadness scream out inside my head
This is what you wanted, shall I memorize every word that you said
Should I pretend there was a funeral, and to my soul that you are dead
You whisper words of goodbye, echoeing deep inside my heart
To try to know life without you, is to live with a life ripped apart
Emptiness remains, it mingles with the pain, it bottles up everything that I have
Everything I use to share I now store away, I let in fester inside, as the hours turn into days

No one to talk to, to vent to, to even cry to,
Just a spider weaving webs as it dances on the walls
Just the night noises, in the darkness they call
Across the floor, creatures come closer they slither and crawl
Life has become dreary, I live in shadows behind closed doors
With my eyes so teary, there is nothing pretty here anymore

You walked away because you were scared
You chose to throw away every moment that we shared
Should I turn to anger, and waste away
Should I be understanding and take the pain
I will turn myself colder, and not let the emotions show
I will let you walk away, I will let you go

What am I saying, so bitter I have become
Knowing it was me that hurt a lost love
So much time that passed and yet I selfishly held him near
Never letting him go I kept him here
Broken promises, I left him waiting
I hurt him time and time again, yet selfishly taking
I cover up it all up in my drunken dispair
Hiding all this shame, with this broken smile I wear

There was once, one half in me and one half in you
It is now a shattered heart with expired love that cannot be renewed
A fool I was to take you so for granted
If I could take it back, all my words would be recanted
Just know this, that you will always be my best friend
In memories, in dreams, my love will never end
I will sit there at the tree still swinging all alone
Remembering, treasuring, all the love to me you've shown
For this and more I will never forget
I will be covered in the sadness, and living with regret