Requiem Poem by comatose

devoid of any feelings as i stare into the sun/i saw her rotting in my mind, she, my only one/once upon a time she was graceful, dancing through my veins with feet fast and daring, stares at me and mocks, glares and taunts and smiles and sighs, then welcomes me in her arms as i made up reasons why i needed to be with her, some true, those out of despair, some in mumblings of weakening as i long for my share, of her....justified/justified for i have paid, paid her with endless nights and lost time and half of my sanity, paid while my reasons beg for me to wake up and see me, that i have paid too dearly, paid even more for she betrayed me, my only one, she screams now rather than hum her calls, and what were once dances had turned into pushes and pulls/i dont mind at all if that was all that she had left, what is there to fill me anyway other than her theft, but she had left with what she got when i could have paid even more for her to stay, she had left and leave me a shadow rather than a soul within her clay/she left me and i have been watching her die as time goes by