Regretting, Regretting Everything. Regretting, Regretting Nothing Poem by Vanessa Kingsley

The chances I could have taken.
The things I could have said.
The flame that you awakened.
That voice inside my head.

What I meant to say and what you thought it meant.
Tears I cried so I could forget.
Hurt inside I wouldn’t vent.

Wondering if it was true at all.
Trying not to become too attached.
Letting myself quickly fall.
Watching my life burn from your match.

With someone else and thinking of you.
Confused as to how this all works out.
Sadly I still feel like a fool.
Nothing I can do about it. No I won’t pout.

Memories and games burned into me.
Longings I thought has long past.
Wanting to run and flee from what’s coming.

Figuring out what I can’t possibly know.
Calculating everything and anything we shared.
Letting it all….go.
Hoping maybe I can get this flame to flare.